Here I am

shifting to tumblr...

2009-09-14T15:39:00.002+08:00

i'll be using tumblr to blog more often from now onwards.. =/

http://deranged58.tumblr.com/

WKWSCIFOC 2009

2009-07-11T11:47:00.003+08:00

came back home from WKWSCIFOC yesterday morning (yes, i left early, cos i had some stuff on in the afternoon and at night, and so missed out on the starry starry night and all the skit ~~and so i'm waiting for people to UPLOAD THEM!! :(~~).. it was really a great experience (one of my friends even commented that the timings of sleep and revelry will be similar to when school reopens and when we stay in hall LOL)

frankly, i went to FOC not expecting that much. yes, i expected fun, laughter, pictures, memories. but freni is simply more than all these: we had fun during the games, but also won most of them; we had laughter, but also ; we not only had pictures (or videos, for that matter), we took so many photos it was really quite shocking; we brought home not only memories, but memories of enjoyment, of letting our hair down, of just having more fun.

freni ftw, and win we did.

but all these wouldn't have been possible without all our seniors too man.. lide and tze were simply great OGLs. besides all the hwa chong and chin-shaking, and all the damn it and hi-larious, you were thoughtful, caring, always looking out for our welfare, always thinking of how to make our FOC time an even better one. kudos to you man. :)

not forgetting our AGLs, walter and shi hui.. your professionalism is amazing.. while one rushes off in front to lead freni ahead into the game, the other would stay behind to make sure no one lags behind.. also amazing are liz and shannon, for always using your cameras to take down evidence of the merry moments we had as freni, so that ten years down the road, we can always look back to freni, to WKWSCIFOC 2009.

still want to write some more, but need to rush off to wash up if i am not to be late for church hah! can't wait for service today, it's going to be an amaing time :D:D:D

and so university life beckons

2009-06-15T15:15:00.006+08:00

received my freshmen's package a few days ago, and spent most of yesterday (when i was home) preparing for university.. there's an excitement that "yes, i'm finally going back to school", a longing that says "finally, one step closer to realizing my dream", yet there's also a trepidation that goes "there's so much i'm not sure about", a fear that goes "oh shucks, what's going to happen next"..

2 Timothy 1:7 For God has not given us a spirit of fear, but of power and of love and of a sound mind

there're so many choices, so many combinations, so many options, so many places where i can choose wrongly, and cause regret.. yet there're so many opportunities, so much experiences, so many chances for me to learn, to grow..

even as deadlines for applications loom and timelines for results are aplenty, there's a part of me knowing that it'll be ok.. naturally, i've done most of what i can, i've made decisions to the best of my human mind, i've tried to do what i can.. but God will take over from here on.. everything is still more or less a mystery to me, still hazy, still unclear.. but God is above all this.. His eyes see beyond the fog before me, His knowledge is far beyond mine.. ultimately, i'm doing this for none other than Him, and i'm pursuing a dream He gave me..

Matthew 6:33 But seek first the kingdom of God and His righteousness, and all these things shall be added to you.

first, the kingdom of God. beyond that, God will still be in the picture to make sure all things are alright.

in God i trust..

不爽。

2009-05-28T18:41:00.002+08:00

不爽。

不爽很多事情，但又没做什么去改变。

需要改变，改变做法，改变思想，改变态度。

犹豫

2009-05-20T20:25:00.003+08:00

好久没有写部落格了⋯今天决定用话语写，请别介意⋯（介意的话就别读！）

最近感觉有一点犹豫⋯也不知道为什么，就觉得有一点的惆怅。或许是因为知道自己没有爬到更高峰，而也知道原因是因为自己最近失去了一丝的上进心。没那么常读圣经，没那么常祷告，没那么常等待，聆听神到底要跟我说什么⋯也应该是因为这样所以觉得自己在用自己的力量在跑，而之所以感觉如此的犹豫。

世界上有很多东西可以让我笑：台湾综艺节目，与朋友聚会，做我爱做的事⋯但并不是很多事能让我快乐。

尼希米記 8:10 - 又对他们说：你们去吃肥美的，喝甘甜的，有不能预备的就分给他，因为今日是我们主的圣日。你们不要忧愁，因靠耶和华而得的喜乐是你们的力量。

因靠耶和华而得的喜乐 是你们的力量
喜乐大概也就是快乐吧。真正的喜乐来自与耶和华。也就因为如此，我的快乐来源应该来自神。

因靠耶和华而得的喜乐 是你们的力量
力量。因神来的快乐将会转换成力量。而这股力量，不将只足够我去做好的事，不将只足够我去做对的事，而能帮我，在对的时间，对的环境，做对的事。

也就适因为如此，我无时无刻需要圣灵在我左右，帮助我，协助我。也就是因为如此，牧师才会说：微笑是需要采取信念才能做得到的。没有信念，就等于没有把握⋯如果没有把握，又怎么笑得出来？

我需要找回信念⋯把握⋯微笑。不只是在总人面前撑出来的微笑，而是发自内心，从耶和华取来的力量，之所以顺其自然的微笑。

SOW.. hanging out for d evens..

2009-05-08T00:12:00.003+08:00

had a great day today! haha..

spent the morning confirming which songs i want to play for SOW auditions.. :P scared of choosing too hard a song, then not being able to pass auditions, but also don't want to choose too easy a song.. but just felt God telling me ~~now~~ that the song i choose is not important, the heart that i play the song with is more important.. haha.. God is amazing man..

went out after lunch to fetch fifi!!! whoa, it's been so long since i've seen her man!! haha.. it was meant to be a d evens thing, but in the end only a few of us turned up, and it was quite funny lol.. just really spent time with the leaders of d evens, and hanging out!

after fifi left, we went to have lunch, then made our way down to cathay to meet more people and catch a movie - Taken.. i realised 10-15 minutes into the show that.. hey.. this looks familiar.. and in the end, REVELATION: i saw this in camp before.. >.< and it was like quite some time ago, since i orded in january, so it must be like at least 4-5 months ago.. - -; singapore cinemas are slow man.. no wonder ~~piracy~~.. =X

after that went to have selegie chicken rice and the tauhuay.. whoa, now having craving for it man.. lol.. it's like drugs, once you have it, you want to continue having it.. but once you separate yourself from it for some time, the craving's gone lol..

stopped by at church before coming home to put my guitar there.. then had a great h&c with shuyi! the army people need to come out early man.. =/ and shirlene!! lol..

tomorrow's going to be awesome: NTU med checkup in the morning, buying a guitar pick at city hall, then CG and YA meeting! busy busy day yo! :D

simplicity and happiness

2009-05-07T00:53:00.001+08:00

tired. >.<

just did something in faith, it has stumbled me before, and if i'm not careful, it will stumble me again.. but i cannot doubt the voice of God, and thus acted in faith. believe that God will come through :)

i think sometimes people tend to think too much.. i know i do, especially when it's at night, and there's nothing to distract your mind from thinking.. "what if".. "maybe".. "if i had done that".. the list goes on and on, and many times we just allow our minds to think, and let it go unharnessed.. not exactly a bad thing, but not necessarily good also..

i want to learn to guard my mind more.. it's too easy to be caught offguard, too easy to just "go".. :@ i should be the master of my mind.. :)

promotion and pride..

2009-05-06T00:40:00.002+08:00

long time since i blogged lol.. was reading 2 chronicles 26 after meeting shuyi today, and saw something which i probably had read before, but didn't notice properly..

(v5) [Uzziah] sought God in the days of Zechariah, who had understanding in the visions of God; and as long as he sought the LORD, God made him prosper.
Uzziah was a man of God in his youth.. He was king of Jerusalem (v3), he did what was right in the Lord's eyes (v4) and God responded to his faithful heart. Uzziah was someone who would be like a senior leader in church, someone who would be preaching from time to time in a zone meeting, someone other people might look up too, and God prospered his ministry. From verses 6 to 15, the Bible gave examples of how God prospered him.. and man, when the Bible says God prospered someone, it means God prospered him in a great manner!

(v16) But when he was strong his heart was lifted up, to his destruction, for he transgressed against the LORD...
But when Uzziah was strong! Many people in this world would become wealthy, prosperous, might be promoted to a high position in their companies etc.. However, what is our reaction when we become wealthy? do we forget the God element? remember, in verse 5, it says that God prospered him. Uzziah's success wasn't purely based on his merit, wasn't purely based on his achievements - God was the key factor! but when Uzziah became strong, he became proud, and when he became proud, he transgressed against God.

(v16-19) 16 But when he was strong his heart was lifted up, to his destruction, for he transgressed against the LORD his God by entering the temple of the LORD to burn incense on the altar of incense. 17 So Azariah the priest went in after him, and with him were eighty priests of the LORD—valiant men. 18 And they withstood King Uzziah, and said to him, “It is not for you, Uzziah, to burn incense to the LORD, but for the priests, the sons of Aaron, who are consecrated to burn incense. Get out of the sanctuary, for you have trespassed! You shall have no honor from the LORD God.”
19 Then Uzziah became furious; and he had a censer in his hand to burn incense. And while he was angry with the priests, leprosy broke out on his forehead, before the priests in the house of the LORD, beside the incense altar.
when Uzziah became strong, he became proud, and he began to get big-headed. God made it clear that only the priests, sons of Aaron were supposed to burn incense at the altar of incense.. but Uzziah thought himself above such rules and regulations.. who was he, to be bound down by such rules and regulations? he was Uzziah, the one who conquered the Philistines, subdued the Ammonites. he was king, and he was powerful.. why should he submit to authority, why should he care about the priests now? and who are the priests, to come and tell Uzziah that he cannot burn incense for the Lord? didn't they know he was king? didn't they know that he wanted to worship God, in his own ways?

but God's ways are always higher than ours.. as Uzziah went against God, God struck him down with leprosy.. and by doing so, God made Uzziah an outcast in his times..

sometimes it is easy to forget the God element.. sometimes submitting to authority is no fun.. but God has a plan for each and every single one of us..

for the businessman, God has put him there, that he might be the salt and light in the world, able to make a difference.. promotions come, pay cheques balloon, all in God's will, all for a reason.. are we so blinded that we would just take it as we have earned our promotion, we have worked hard for a pay rise, and neglect God, miss tithings, scrimp on offerings? and are we going to get so proud, that people under you have to remain silent, do what they're told, and leave no room for discussions?

for the leader, God has risen him up to minister to people, to input into others' lives.. TL, CGL, ZM, ZL.. are we so blinded by titles that we forget the reason why we were put in pastoral leadership, why we were promoted as leaders in the house of God? do we become so proud, that now, we want to do things our way, and others cannot input into the situation?

it is easy to become proud, easy to forget God, but it is a fact that whatever happens, it happens because God wanted it to happen, and when it happens, God can use it to further glorify Himself.. in the world, many people think only about themselves.. it's always about me, myself and i.. but God is a God of prosperity, a God of abundance.. and God chooses who to prosper, who to bless in abundance.. no matter how high we climb, no matter what we do, no matter where we are, remember verse 5..

[Uzziah] sought God in the days of Zechariah, who had understanding in the visions of God; and as long as he sought the LORD, God made him prosper.

we need to continually seek God.. God puts things into perspective again.. God brings down our proud hearts, and aligns us to Him again.. He doesn't need us, but He loves us, and in loving us, made a decision to do some things, prosper us, provide for us.. the least we can do is to come to God, thank Him, and love Him back.. :)

mobile blogging

2009-04-13T23:46:00.000+08:00

i've never tried this before, but as the saying goes, there's a first time for everything :D

did quite a lot of things today.. went for my dental checkup, now having to wear super tight INDIA elastics for my teeth.. lol.. on the train back i KO and woke up only at pasir ris.. went back to tampines, and went to the new mall to just window shop.. uniqlo had a long queue as usual, but from what i could see from the outside the clothes looks really pretty.. hopefully i'll get my pay tomorrow, then i can go there shopping before the promotion ends this week.. but i'll probably go early in the morning heh..

met wei xiong there, just spent time fellowshipping with him and everything.. then we went over to tampines mall.. and i GOT A SHOCK.. the place was almost empty!!! photographic evidence can be found on my facebook! the whole place was so super quiet!

heard that calvin injured himself.. :( take care of yourself yo!

working tomorrow :)

easter!

2009-04-07T14:33:00.004+08:00

some things really get under my skin and irritate me. thought of blogging about them, but hey, why fill my blog with unhappy stuff when there's so many things to look forward to this week!

haha EASTER is here! i'm so excited about Easter, i just know that it's going to be a great time man.. some things have been pointing toward a GREAT easter, and i know that while easter is just one weekend, it's going to be such a great time YO! i'm EXCITED for easter services yo!

friday: 3-5pm
saturday: 5-7pm

if you (1) have never been to a church, (2) don't go church regularly, (3) have not gone to church for a long time, EASTER is the time for you to GO to a CHURCH yo! just as everyone celebrates CHRISTMAS, everyone should come and celebrate EASTER man! :D

thoughts that are changing all the time..

2009-04-05T17:42:00.002+08:00

haha i just want to BLOGG today! it's been super long since i've really blogged haha, so here i come!!

haha service yesterday was FUNny! Pastor Don Easton was super cool, he was just teaching us about relationships and marriages, and how we should act towards them! first we have to PRAY! haha it can be quite weird to think about PRAYING for someone you don't know, and even though you know that God already knows all things and we can call forth things that are not i the physical to come to pass, it still feels WEIRD! lol, but i must say it was quite useful, all the practical tips from the BIBLE, teaching us how we should view marriage, how we should act before and in the marriage, and how our attitudes should be like toward our future partners!

it's so relevant, cos a lot of the youths in church are now growing up to the stage where they begin to look and see around them.. it might not be that intentional ("omigosh omigosh, i wonder who my prince charming/damsel in distress is, i wonder if i'll see them today, must make sure i open my eyes HUGE so i don't miss them!"), or even conscious, but the fact is that many of us are now at the optimum age to get into a relationship and potentially get married.. and i feel that it's an important phase in our lives and sometimes, things will just work out without us having to worry or do anything.. Jeremiah 29:11 says that the thoughts God thinks towards us is to give us a future and a hope, and so why would God compromise on the aspect of relationships and marriage?

then in discipleship class yesterday Ivan was sharing about his family, how he prays and 4D for his family and everything, and i must say that prayer really made a change in his family.. just in one month, his whole family got saved, and are now in church.. it's just an inspiration, and a reference point as to what i need to do to experience a similar miracle in my family! already, my mom was saying that she might want to come and "check out" church during the mother's day week, and i know what i need to do to make it come to pass, and more than that, to get a seed sown into my mom's heart, which will then take root and grow fruit.. James 5:16 says that the effective, fervent prayer of a righteous man avails much! so i'm going to just pray and pray and PRAY for my mom to come to church this mother's day and get saved! it's going to happen man!

ivan also shared about how he not only 4D-ed his current family, but how he took the things he didn't like about this family to 4D into his own future family.. while i have not done that yet, i do have a vision and dream for my current family, which i believe will also come to pass one day.. when that day comes, i'll update it here :D

oh and Easter's coming up in less than a week! haha Easter is the bestest time to come to church man.. there's a group of people whom i really want to invite to church, and really, the only thing i can is to pray.. it's not going to be easy, but i know that God's plans for their lives are not fulfilled yet.. God has much much more for all these people, and it's going to happen man.. it might not be this Easter, but hey, there's Red Rain, there's Christmas, there's next year, 2010, 2011... it's just going to happen man..

i'm just so pumped up for this season.. it's going to be amazing. :D

powerhouse!

2009-03-30T22:22:00.001+08:00

haha it's powerhouse week again! so excited about it, it's just great to come together early in the morning and just PRAY together as a church before those working go off to work and those studying go off to school! :D

God's good. :D

blooooooooog!

2009-03-11T10:03:00.002+08:00

haha, i'm actually quite sad cos i can't play my guitar, but hey, there're more things which can go wrong, and i'm lucky it's just a guitar string snap.. :)

gerald has POC-ed! haha, 7 weeks has just passed JUST LIKE THAT, and now he's on his block leave! so excited about it man haha.. (sounds like i'm the one on block leave like that..) but :( ding jie's going in this friday! so soon.. :/

these few weeks has just been great, and have reminded me of the basics la.. so many things has happened these few weeks a few years ago, and i know that things happen for God's reasons, and i'm glad to have gone through all of them (:

TWEET people! haha, it's super cool la, whenever, wherever, just tweet, and everyone can know what's up with your life haha.. http://www.twitter.com :DD

ok, that's all, preparing to go out to meet ding jie and people already! :D:D

combined post

2009-03-02T11:12:00.003+08:00

haha loads to blog about today man!! i realise it's been a super long time since i've last blogged, so decided to take some time out to BLOGG!

1. my mom is a good cook :D she has been cooking for most of the morning, and cos i'm working on my ~~dad's ancient~~ laptop in the kitchen, the aroma is just overwhelming :D:D

2. i was talking to ding jie on MSN, then he showed me this link which explained his MSN nick! : http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RxkezvGwI20 YOU は SHOCK

(the food aroma is tempting me again LOL)

3. Affluence to Influence Conference has been great. Pastor Tan from CHC, Pastor How, Pastor Lia.. they've just changed the mindsets of so many people, me included, and i know that i have a clearer goal for the rest of the time before i enter university, not just to earn money and prepare for university, which i should still do, but also to go make a difference in my world.. like what Pastor How said, i'm not naive enough to believe i can change the world, but i can change my world..

4. work has been fun haha.. it's not that slack la, but it's much better than working office hours and everything, and it's a great thing haha.. just waiting for the pay to come in haha.. =/

ok shall stop here and start working again! lol..

happy cny!!

2009-01-26T00:42:00.002+08:00

haha it's CNY!! yays!! just here to do a quick update!

haha, had a busy past two days, doing a lot of housework and eating a lot!! just been spending some time with my family :D

haha many many photos are uploaded to my picasa, just go and take a look! :D:D:D

ord lo!

2009-01-24T21:50:00.002+08:00

haha ORD lo!

really really enjoyed yesterday, after i orded, because it was just so amazing.. had originally planned to go to church straight away after my army ends, but i got called for a job offer, so decided to pop by there first before going to church to prac and prep myself.. sat in for follow-up with gerald and shuyi, and worshipped God with our voices and my guitar.. the feeling was just so different from the day before lol.. the presence of God was just so thick and i believe God ministered to all three of us through the worship.. :)

went for sound cleanup after that, which was amazing too.. it was quite fun cleaning up all the stuff, and boy, is the place dirty LOL.. we still need to clean up the MPR, but yeah mostly done!

after that went to suntec to eat with shuyi, xuejun, balls and wei xiong haha.. it was fun just to hang out, to relax after a long day, and to talk.. truly this is the way life should be man haha..

i'm prepared for the next season in my life.. even though it's mostly empty for now, but i know what's going to come is going to be important, is going to be exciting, is going to exalt God's name in the highest way.. for we are all called to do certain things in specific seasons in our lives, and i know that God has placed me where i am now to propel me forward in this season to do His work for His glory.. :D

and to end off, this is the ORD present i received from shuyi and cavin:

thanks! :D

snortz.

2009-01-15T16:26:00.002+08:00

i've been quite a pig.. just went downstairs to the canteen to sleep on the not-very-comfy-but-better-than-nothing chairs for like 2 hours plus? haha.. life of an to-be-ORD personnel..

had a great CG yesterday.. even though the word has been more or less preached about before, it was great being able to listen to it again haha.. God spoke, and i'm going to work on His word :D

after that we had a cam session haha.. we were intending to just take photos for the photo database, but in the end we spent like one and a half hours taking pictures and laughing.. >.<

God has put me in such a position for such a time.. there's been growth, but at the same time there's more room to grow.. i've learnt some stuff, but there's still so much more stuff to learn.. the future is great! haha (:

*notices laze in post and decides to stop*

another off day

2009-01-12T08:43:00.002+08:00

haha not working today again cos i've a dental appointment later, so took the whole day off.. going mind cafe later, but seemingly not a lot of people leh! :( now only got like me, gerald, dengyao.. then kelly, calvin might join us later when they finish work! sian! haha, must get them to come and talk man!! haha..

the last weekend was great.. went for zone f service, and though the message was meant for the 13- to 16-year-olds, somehow i felt that it was for me too, that i'm still a babe in Christ, and there're so much more that i have not done.. haha.. main service was awesome.. the word really spoke to me, and i'm sure just as God spoke the word love in my heart, He's going to speak and reveal more as we go through the series :D

sound was ARGH.. lol.. need to be more on the ball man.. haha.. >.< oh and there's a new batch of soundmen being trained up again! which means that this is the third batch of soundmen! (notice i used soundMEN haha!) it's so exciting, especially now with BMT, cos last time, it could be that your leaders just put you into this ministry, but now, you get to choose which ministries you prefer, and which ministry you go to is a choice! seeing the 14-, 15-year-olds choosing to come to sound ministry, and knowing what's in store for them, i can't help but feel excited man.. :D

truly, as Garrett preached last time, this is only the beginnings.. as we keep growing, as we continue to strike the ground, we'll not only grow strong, but we will grow big, and as we do life together, it's gonna be so amazing. :P

stirring up..

2009-01-09T20:49:00.002+08:00

what do you do when you can't find a certain software, or method to do something which you feel should be there, but somehow it's just not there?

there can be a few options:
1. run from it.
case 1 never resolved.

2. find it with greater zeal. e.g.i wanted to use another place to upload all my photos and everything, and i know quite a lot of my CG people are using picasa, and since i already have a google account, it seemed like the logical choice. but one thing i can't stand about the web interface is that i cannot mass upload pictures. hence i searched and searched, and found:

case 2 solved.

3. start to develop it yourself e.g.i've been trying to find a Bible application for my e71 for the longest of time. it's quite irritating cos i believe there're some such applications available for free for the iphone (which was one reason i wanted it in the first place heh), but there are just NONE for the e71. as a result, i went to the library today and got:

of course, i haven't been doing programming for quite some time, but hey, there's always a chance i can do it right? if i manage to do it, i'll distribute one copy to everyone in church LOL
case 3 pending.

similarly, what do you do when you meet with troubles in your life? it might seem easy to run away, to escape. but when you sit down and think about it, there might be many other ways to solve or work around it. some methods might be quick and easy, while others take longer and are more complicated. but never run away, cos that means you'll never find out how far and high you can go. (:

anyways! update about this week! haha it's been super exciting even though i fell sick and everything lol..

travelled down to serangoon on monday to sit in follow-up with shuyi and gerald and meet calvin and dingjie! haha, it was super funny, we took like dunno how many pictures at one of the serangoon parks, and the funniest thing was that there was a couple there! lol! we just ignored them and did our jump shots and everything, it was hilarious.. all the pictures are with calvin, whom i am still waiting to send me ALL the pictures >.<

went to meet gerald's and dingjie's friend kelly at her workplace on tuesday! haha we had lunch together, while talking and just chatting.. after kelly went back to work the three of us went down to raffles exchange to support wan chin! she's doing some NETS promotion thing, and there's a lucky draw lol! we called calvin out, and it was super funny la haha..

yesterday some of us went swimming at tampines swimming complex! i was still sick so i didn't swim, but shuyi, cavin, dengyao and gerald did, and i think they were quite cold..

after that we were on our way to the mrt station where we met jun guang! haha i mixed him up with jack =X

can't wait for the weekend man!! Luke 10:2 Then He said to them, “The harvest truly is great, but the laborers are few; therefore pray the Lord of the harvest to send out laborers into His harvest. God has sent out His laborers, and the harvest shall truly be great and plentiful! amen!

the post i promised..

2009-01-06T21:30:00.002+08:00

yes, i'm finally going to make good my promise to blog about what i promised to blog about in my previous post.. might be quite a long post, i dunno, i'll see where it leads me to. (:

as i was sitting there at the dining table in the wedding reception, listening in to the solemnization ceremony, witnessing the bonding of two people, hearing them say the matrimony vows, i can't help but wonder, why is the divorce rate so high? why is it that so many people take these vows so lightly, so flamboyantly that two years, five years, ten years down the road, they can just say i give up, i quit? is it really the issue of having choices? in the olden days, in the days of arranged marriages, no matter how bad the marriage is, the couple stays as a couple, through thick and thin.. why is it now that when things happen in a marriage now, one of the options that come into mind is - divorce? last time, people despised divorcees; now, they're just another group of people..

don't get me wrong, i'm not against these people per se.. people have never been wrong to me, especially in this sense.. i do understand that sometimes circumstances can strain a relationship, that sometimes people change and everything, but isn't this the case for the olden times too? why have we, as a society, begin to think of divorce as an option out?

then when Pastor Lia preached about the church ethos on sunday, parts of it became clearer to me.. these people are looking for love, yes, but they were too impatient to find out whether the one they are going to marry really is the one the will love till the end of their days.. impatient people do the right thing at the wrong time getting married is a right thing to do, but doing it three months, five months, one year into a relationship is not the right time.. it's just simply not enough time to get to know a person fully in this period of time, especially if you're talking about marriage..

but people nowadays have pressures from both themselves and the people around them to faster get married, or they just want to rush into a relationship when they're not ready.. in the end, when circumstances happen, they can't stand it anymore, and they just.. give up.

yet when these things happen, is giving up the right thing to do? foolish people do the wrong thing at the wrong time divorce is never the right thing to do.. matrimony vows are sacred.. they are not meant to be broken.. rules are meant to set the boundary, to let people know what is the higher authority's view on certain issues, and man and woman are meant to remain man and woman.. let's not talk about Christianity, but is there any - any religion in this world that says divorce is ok, if you're not happy with the person you're with, don't bother trying to rebuild the relationship, just divorce? none that i know of.

what irks me is that there are so many people who get married, turn out to not be happy with the one they're with, divorce, and continue in this cycle again.. remember, i'm not against the person per se, i just don't understand why they cannot bring themselves out for a moment, clear their minds and move on without having to go down that vicious cycle? >.<

enough of that already lol.

2009 has started out pretty well, despite a few stumbling blocks.. things have happened, both good and bad, and i'm glad to say that i've learnt from both the good things and the bad ones..

this year, my motto will be love.. it's a season of love, and something i really want more this year.. Pastors said before that the ten commandments from God can be summarized into simple two: love God, love people, and i think that in 2009, at least for this part of 2009, i need to love the people around me more, just shower them with random bouts of love, just to let them know that i cherish them, and that they are important to me.. and i already have a few ideas in mind already.. heh heh.. so don't be surprised if i surprise you with something suddenly! haha..

random quote i got from the net:
Faith makes all things possible.
Love makes them easy.

~ Unknown

faith will let me see the impossible, but love will let me touch it. (:

sick...

2009-01-05T18:31:00.003+08:00

desperately sick today, after my cousin's wedding on saturday and yesterday's fun(!).. have loads to blog about, about marriage and relationships and stuff, mostly muses which came to me as i sat in the corner watching my cousin and his wife going through the ceremony, about children, about lives, about destiny..

i really have no time to do it justice now, will plan what to say and all before doing a proper post on that..

really really love this story.. not sure whether i'd posted it before, but like Pastors said, whatever is good to see/hear/know, it's always worth it to see/hear/know it once more, twice more, many many times more..

certain things are meant to be caught, not just knew.. only then will it come back to remind you of your past, of your growth, of your future, of your destiny..

gtg!

happy new year!!

2009-01-01T15:30:00.000+08:00

wow, 09 is finally here lol.. really really excited about this year, because of all that it is bringing, and all that it means.. God has also prepared me for 09, giving me a word of what He is preparing me to do this year, so i'm really quite excited!

made new specs today, and got a haircut.. my cousin's getting married this saturday, and i'll be doing sound for the yishun satellite children's church this sunday! life's exciting yo!

the fear of the Lord..

2008-12-29T15:24:00.003+08:00

finally got down to fully read this book by John Bevere that i'd bought quite some time ago, but have never finished.. not that i've finished it now, but currently have a resolve to finish reading it, and i will.

i like what it says in one of the first few chapters: it's always black-and-white for other people, but there's always a gray area for ourselves. how true.. oftentimes i think that people shouldn't do this, shouldn't try that, but at times i end up doing the exact thing.. it was sort of a mini-revelation to me, that i've disrespected God by going against His commandments, yet thinking that God has somehow allowed me some leeway in doing the things that i do..

change my thinking, change my attitude, change my life..

*

had an amazing discipleship class with Pastors last saturday.. how do you keep your idealism in this world, even as you grow up?

according to dictionary.com, idealism is "the cherishing or pursuit of high or noble principles, purposes, goals, etc".. ~~well, that was the closest definition to what we had discussed..~~

idealism is hard to maintain in this practical world.. that's just the cold hard truth.. but at the same time, there is an innate desire to remain idealistic, to continue being idealistic.. bills, housing, cars, children.. they can just blow you away..

but remaining idealistic is a choice.. and what we do today determines our choice, and determines whether we can stay idealistic in the future.. we need to have a strong anchor, and we need to be deeply rooted.. have such a strong anchor that we cannot simply just say "there's someone else to take over me".. so deeply rooted that no matter what happens, we stay convicted to the cause that we live for, die for..

are you willing to die a fool for Christ? i am, and i want to remain so.. (:

christmas!

2008-12-25T01:29:00.003+08:00

haha merry christmas everyone!! :D

had a great christmas eve today, not considering the fact that my alarm didn't work and i was late for my duty this morning.. woke up at like 7.30 when i was supposed to be in camp at 7 lol.. ah well..

service was great.. had quite a number of new faces, and the Word of God was just anointed today.. :D after service we spent some time in getting down and going to changi airport to for dinner.. yvonne gave me my present for the CG gift exchange!! it's super nice, i'll upload the picture once i have it.. (AHEM YU TING!)

ate drunken chicken at the airport T1 staff canteen haha.. it was GOOD! after that we rushed to candy empire to get stuff for the inter-CG gift exchange, bought quite a lot of candee! ~~it felt like candy weekend again!~~

went back to church after that with yu ting and daniel.. decided on the way back that we should start changing our language! no more "damn", "oh my God" and things like that! so d8, let's grow this new culture man!! xDD

took LOADS of photos man.. waiting for yu ting to send me the photos too.. it was really fun hanging out la.. haha..

chen gang's going back to shanghai tomorrow! ): it's like super fast la, he's just been back for like a few weeks, and now he's going off again.. sigh..

counted down in church until12 midnight haha.. then took a bus home..

2000 years ago, Jesus was born on this day! 2000 years later, we're still celebrating his birthday! and 2000 years later, we'll still be partying on Christmas Day! woo!!

job hunting...

2008-12-22T10:24:00.002+08:00

and so it comes down to this. when you're about to ORD, you begin to look around for a job to cover your living expenses and ~~hopefully~~ increase your savings.. i definitely need more than just a job, and am actually looking at quite a few part time jobs which can get me a pretty good sum of money, and yet at the same time be able to have quite a lot of free time to serve and volunteer in church.. it will come to pass man!

romans 8:28 And we know that all things work together for good to those who love God, to those who are the called according to His purpose.

amen!

this school holidays have been a time of growing and moulding man.. so much has happened, i've been given so many opportunities, and while i might not have made full use of all the opportunities, while i might have made some decisions that i regret, all in all i must say that this december has been a time of growth.. can't wait for 09 man!

update..

2008-12-20T09:02:00.004+08:00

timmme to blooog!

feeling better about things now, even though i still don't really feel totally good about things, but hey, they're going to work out fine now (:

yesterday was such a dead day in the morning.. went to work super early at 7 cos i was supposed to open the office, but in the end the overnight shift kept the keys and no one was to be found to open the other rooms! after that just went to surf around, blog a little, then began my super boring day.. in camp.. >.< went out around mid-day to go for my dental appointment, there's just a teeny weeny bit of gap left before it closes and i'm done with braces! can't wait man!

then i went to church again to meet calvin and cavin to hang out! i didn't bring my guitar because it was a bit too troublesome to bring it on the bus when i was going so many places, and the worship team was having rehearsals which meant that volleyball would be quite distracting, so in the end we chatted, walked down to collect photos, played pool and everything.. calvin's quite good for someone who's just started playing man (no matter what you say!!) you know how some team members just cannot follow instructions to hit a ball? he can! and makes the shot so well, it drops into a pocket! when i started playing, i was the type who straight ball also cannot shoot one lo LOL

when we were finishing up fifi came down on her way to huan bin's house for their CG outing and barbeque, and she asked whether we wanted to go.. so in the end, we all hurriedly kept our stuff, collected our belongings and cheonged downstairs to meet fifi to go there lol.. had loads of fun, meeting old faces and new faces.. you know how sometimes it's quite hard for people to really sit down and chat with one another, just get to know each other better, things like that? i realised that yesterday was a good chance to catch up man! haha.. d8 should do something like this soon!!

can't wait for today man! it's just going to be so amazing, there's just so much excitement buzzing within me! it's going to be a GREAT service!

*am going to start taking more photos man! must make full use of my camera phone and the memory inside.. 2gb leh! don't play play hor!*

crushed

2008-12-19T07:43:00.002+08:00

dun really know what to write, what to say, but just have this nagging feeling to try to alleviate my worries and fear.. that decision was mine to make, and once i made it, there was no turning back, whatever happens, i was going to have to bear the consequences, and bear the consequences i will..

but hey, everything's gonna be fine, cos God will provide amen!

the past two days have been a chance for me to catch up with some sleep and hang out with my CG people and other friends from church and also LnMC3SMG.. zone outing was fun, watching Bolt as a whole big group eating my char kuay teow was hilarious, discipleship class was insightful.. haha..

but no matter what happened, i'm going to be fine.. i've survived more than this without God, this time, it's going to be alright.. yeah..

*can't wait for christmas services*

the last few days..

2008-12-12T02:27:00.000+08:00

haha, had an amazing last few days in church and everything.. let me go through one by one what happened.. lol..

we had CANDY weekend in church over the weekend!! haha it was super cool, there was just SO MUCH candy all around church! there was candy floss, and so much ben and jerry's ice-cream everywhere, and everyone was just smiling and grinning from all the sugar! we also played a lot of MTVs from the last era (i.e. when i was still in secondary school), and it was so cool seeing all the people my age gathering, singing and dancing along, laughing at one another, and also seeing all the younger generation, shocked at us! LOL (never mind, ten years down the road, they'll be like us, and the yet younger generation will do the same to them!)

monday was a rest day for me, and i went to tampines mall to get my new phone! i dun really have a lot of money left, but hey, i needed to use my starhub voucher before it expired, and my mom just passed me some money ~~which was meant for me to buy clothes!~~, so i made use of that money to buy the phone first.. like it a lot, but still need time to get use to the QWERTY keypad lol.. but hey, it's still a great phone! haha..

early tuesday morning saw me in church at 730am! haha, what was i doing in church that early? cos we had AMT(A)! haha, basically my church is now having a whole training plan laid up, and this was one of the training which we have to go through to rise up! haha, it was really great to be in the first batch of AMT trainees, because there is simply just no inkling of what it's going to be like, except that it's going to be different from BMT(A)! ~~not the ARMY BMT, but another training plan in my church LOL~~ in the whole of the first day we just went through session after session of powerful sharing and teachings from Pastor, Fifi, Dominic and Charleston! there was just so much to learn, we were all physically tired from the early morning, yet all of us were just so hungry for the Word of God! indeed, the flesh is weak, but the spirit is willing!

we were supposed to sleep at 12am, but if you know my church, that is just impossible! at 12am there were still so many of us walking around, doing our own stuff, eating the ben and jerry's ice cream, chatting and JOKING around! yong ming rong is just super funny! we were all lying in a circle, and he kept telling jokes! in the end we laughed until 2 plus then sleep.. lol..

at around 4 plus i suddenly woke up, and saw the dimming audi main lights.. and looked over to the sound console.. and knew that was it.. LOL but i wasn't awake enough to totally wake up, so dozed off again.. but it was not long before the worship team began singing. on stage. with mics. with the volume quite loud. with me and the circle of guys being directly aimed at by the speakers.

suddenly you just saw all the guys wake up LOL. we had a early morning prayer meeting, which makes the CHC early morning prayer meeting not early enough LOL. after that was breakfast and a break, then we had a john3:16 test (don't ask me why, i like that way john3:16 looks LOL) after that had one final session before we did a final church clean-up.. :D

had CG after that! haha, it was amazing, we all just shared out visions and stuff! calvin came, and we spent ages talking about speaking in tongues! haha, i can just feel that we're going to discuss that again on saturday! lol!

went to army today, totally tired out LOL. but hey, i survived, i'm here now blogging LOL.. finished my AMT assignment, did a quite cool study on romans 9, and felt God speaking to me.. it's back to the fundamentals man.. (:

ok, gonna worship for a while then sleep!!! tomorrow's going to be another great day!! CG outing to sentosa!!!

dazzling december!

2008-12-04T10:25:00.006+08:00

i cheated and used an adjectives list for that *points above*

hah, but oh boy, is this december going to be exciting! first up, we have...

candy weekend!!

haha, i'm so excited about this man! it's going to be cool, we're going to bring in all the candee and sweets and choc and ice cream all for YOU people with a sweet tooth! cool right!

week after this, we're going to have... retro weekend!! go back in time to the 80's and 90's and relive all your childhood memories (for the people my age), or reminisce about the good ol' days where wanton mee from your hawker centre cost only $2!

also that week, we're going to have our very own... show me what you've got have a hidden talent nobody knows about, because you had no chance to flaunt it? your chance is here! hit the lights, show your style as you sashay/impress/wow the audience with your talents!

you think that's all? no, there's more!

christmas service will be just round the corner! what's december without coming together with family and friends and enjoying the festive atmosphere? don't feel like squeezing with tens of thousands of people in town? come down to church where you can just hang out, and chill with your friends, and celebrate christmas together!

on new year's day, there's also going to be a special new year's eve friends' night for all friends out there! it's your special night, make sure you don't miss it!!

i just am so excited about this december man!! woo!

tagged by hong rui!

2008-11-26T17:22:00.004+08:00

rules and regulations:
-people who were tagged, need to blog about their own 10 weird habits/little facts as well as state the rules clearly.
at the end, you need to choose 10 people to be tagged and list their names.
-NO TAGS BACK pls

10 weird
things/habits/little known facts about yourself.

1) i can't hear my message/ring tones when people sms/call me when i'm asleep at night, but i can (almost) always hear my alarm clock.
2) i love to walk out in the night by myself, enjoying the serenity and peace.
3) i carry the same bag everywhere, with almost the same things inside, even if i don't need whatever is inside for the day.
4) i don't like to carry an umbrella, even when i know it's going to rain.
5) as a result of the above, i always try to walk in sheltered areas/walkways, especially when it's raining.
6) i can do webpages and the like in pure html coding. (i.e. i can see the alter any blogskin i get from the internet to suit my needs.)
7) i love scaring the cat near my house. i mean, it even runs away when i walk towards it.
8) i'm a techie guy. even though i've not bought new phones/MP3 players for quite some time, i always look at reviews and everything.
9) i'm an apple fan. and no, i'm not talking about the fruit. >.<
10) i don't eat fruits, besides bananas, jackfruit, longans and durians.

i still don't know who to tag! >.< will update that last part later!

People to be tagged:

Asia Conference

2008-11-24T16:49:00.003+08:00

randomly did a search for Asia Conference 2010 because i wanted to block out the dates for it in my calendar first (super kiasu right? LOL, i'm not singaporean for nothing!).. and found quite a few blogs posting about it already!!

haha basically i took 3 days leave last week to go for this super amazing Asia Conference! it was really a super mind-blowing event, and i felt that learnt so much, grown so much!

1st day: i signed up to serve on usher for the first three days, so on the first day i reported at expo at around 9 plus.. it was quite cool, since i've never tried serving as an usher in my own church before, and here i am serving in Asia Conference haha.. in the morning i was outside garden bliss restaurant, greeting the Pastors and leaders as they made their way to the welcome luncheon. it was quite fun being able just to be there to greet them haha.. =P

had a quick lunch before going to usher for the electives, specifically the art of worship leading! lol, annabel and alison were conducting the elective, and i sneaked in to listen for bits and pieces haha.. went to take a look at Pastor How conducting the effective evangelism elective, Pst Abraham from taiwan giving the same elective in chinese, and also the being a good PA to the Pastor elective. :P haha..

during the evening i was ushering at the foyer 2 area, where almost everyone will pass by on their way to hall 8 from the train or bus.. it was quite funny ushering there, cos of all the people who walk by, and making mistakes here and there which luckily was only known to some of the ushers haha..

oh forgot to mention one thing! as we were ushering with the CHC ushers, we struck up conversations la.. and when i asked how old do some of the ushers think i am, they said i was 16! (ok la, only 2 ushers said that, and i only asked 2 ushers LOL)

day 2: ushering again, so went to expo to meet up with the ushers at 0715!! was tasked to do internal traffic at the main entrance area, which meant that i would see everyone who walks into hall 8! it was quite confusing at first, because even though i knew what the ushers meant by "echo CTE 1" etc, i had to be able to flow the people quickly to the right area.. and i was the only hoGc usher around! lol.. but the CHC ushers really guided me and everything, and after that it was still ok la haha..

met my CG!! haha, shuyi, cavin, gerald, julius, henry, dengyao all came, and had a brief greeting with them before they moved on.. stayed in the hall during the two morning sessions, one with Pst Phil Pringle and the other with Pst Ulf Ekman. Both had different styles, but I really enjoyed both of them sermons!

ended up ushering for only half day before i left to meet my CG at the MRT station to go to Changi Airport for lunch! went to T3 ~~for the first time~~, ate the western food in the food court there which was really nice, and gobbled up the chng teng also haha.. went back to expo for Pst Tan's elective, then went to eat dinner at hall 7.. then went back again for a last session that night, which was really mind-blowing!

3rd day: it was basically the same thing again, went early for the morning sessions, but hey! i wasn't ushering! and in the afternoon i went to tampines mall to watch madagascar 2 with shuyi, cavin, milton and wilson! went to din tai fung to eat xiao long bao after that.. we only ordered xiao long bao! lol.. after that shuyi, milton, wilson and us began to play magic the gathering LOL..

went back again to expo for the night session with Pst Kong.. he preached a really powerful sermon that night, and even though we were in the overflow, the presence of God was still so strong (:

4th day: didn't go for Asia Conference because we had combined service in our church.. met up with shuyi and gerald first, then after that we went down to meet wilson and daniel to... play magic again! lol, we're becoming a magic CG.. milton joined us after that, then we went up for service and sat at the back, which was arranged in quite a weird way, but was arranged that way so that we can have space to jump during praise and worship, yet will be able to see the stage and screens properly..

we had C3 band with us! it was so cool, listening to some of the songs that we do in our own services being performed live by the original band! Pastor How then preached a powerful sermon that no doubt left many impacted and motivated to do more for the next generation..

5th day: woke up early in the morning to go for the 0830 prayer meeting before the morning session of the last day of Asia Conference.. wanted to go and pray for the service, and also to book seats for the ordination ceremony later, because Pastor How was going to be ordained as a Reverend! haha, have to support my Pastor man! had a great session with Pst Phil Pringle after that, then went to the airport for lunch again haha.. went back in time for the very very last session, but couldn't make it into the hall 8, so we just got some of the best seats in hall 7.. the last session was with Dr A R Bernard, and i left the service feeling really changed, because i felt God really spoken to me in a miraculous way, and really, i know what i'm called to do, at least for this period of time!

it was really a great experience, going for Asia Conference, learning so much from the men of God.. can't wait for Asia Conference 2010 man! woo!~

The God I Know - CHC

When the stage is bare tonight
There’s no one else
Just You and me
When the curtains close behind
There’s no pretense
I’m on my knees

I will lay down my all
For there’s no greater cause
Than You my Lord
It’s all because of You
It’s all because of You

The God I know
Glorious and holy
The God I know
Is faithful and true
The God I know
A tower of refuge
Hearts are healed
Christ revealed

The God I know
Light of this city
The God I know
Strengthens the weak
The God I know
Is strong and mighty
As He is, so are we

Holy Holy
Is our God
Is our God

The church He knows
Glorious and holy
The church He knows
Is faithful and true
The church He knows
A tower of refuge
Hearts are healed
Christ revealed

The church He knows
Light of this city
The church He knows
Strengthens the weak
The church He knows
Is strong and mighty
As He is, so are we

supplies!

2008-11-14T14:33:00.002+08:00

ok, i'm going to start this post by explaining why i chose that title:

An Italian, a Scotsman and a Chinese man, are hired at a Construction site. The foreman points out a huge pile of sand.

He says to the Italian guy, "You're in charge of sweeping."

To the Scotsman he says, "You're in charge of shoveling."

And to the Chinese guy, "You're in charge of supplies."

He then says, "Now, I have to leave for a little while. I expect you men to make a dent in that pile of sand."

So when the foreman returns after being away for a couple of hours the pile of sand is untouched.

He asks the Italian, "Why didn't you sweep any of it?"

The Italian replies, "I no hava no broom. You saida to the Chinesea fella that he a wasa ina charge of supplies, but he hasa disappeared and I no coulda finda him nowhere."

Then the foreman turns to the Scotsman and says "And you, I thought I told you to shovel this pile."

The Scotsman replies, "Aye, that ye did laddie, boot ah could nae get meself a shoovel. Ye left th' Chinese gadgie in chairge of supplies, boot ah couldna fin' him neither."

The foreman is really angry now. He storms off toward the pile of sand to look for the Chinese gent.

Just then, the Chinese man leaps out from behind the pile of sand and yells, "SUPPLIES!!!!"

now that that is over, let me tell you the supplies.. i called starhub yesterday to ask about three things: (1) when my current contract is ending, (2) when they're going to ship in the iPhone and (3) whether i'm eligible for a starhub voucher if i decide to recontract.. starhub management must be very worried that i'll jump to singtel, because they just called me to say that (1) yes, i'm eligible for a recontract voucher and (2) they're going to waive off the early termination charge for my current contract! sneaky starhub lol..

so i'm going to get a new phone sooner than expected, which means that i dun have the time to save up the moolah yet haha.. lucky i got some savings beforehand :P

Philippians 4:6 Be anxious for nothing, but in everything by prayer and supplication, with thanksgiving, let your requests be made known to God;

sadded.

2008-11-12T17:23:00.003+08:00

i won't be able to get an iphone after all. starhub's not going to get it in for its customers, and i don't want to sign a singtel plan, so that's that for now.. my new phone target:

cool right? haha.. but that probably means that somehow or another i'll get a

or a

crazy eh.

recently 4D-ed a new macbook (thanks joyce!) can't wait to get it man..

something has been bugging my heart for the longest of time.. something needs to change, something needs to budge.. a fire needs to start burning, needs to be kept burning for change..

2 Corinthians 5:17 If anyone is in Christ, he is a new creation; old things have passed away; behold all things have become new.

unconscious mutterings #302

2008-11-12T16:02:00.003+08:00

Coverage :: US elections
Cynical :: sigh
Gust :: pokemon
Improvised :: innovative
V :: W
Guests :: of-honour. usually those people who do the least but earns the most
Brutal :: killings
Grant :: government
Pull :: push
Streaming :: movies

unconscious mutterings #301

2008-11-04T15:44:00.002+08:00

In love :: in love la, then? lol..
Be my guest :: welcome
Number one :: first
Swallowed whole :: Jonah
50 percent :: halfway there
Made in :: china. *shivers*
Supplement :: health
Right for :: harvest
Endless :: never-ending
Ceramic :: tile

nick vujicic! Pst Kong!

2008-11-04T15:41:00.000+08:00

have been busy the past few days.. went for combined service on saturday, then had a mini-CG after that.. it was a powerful service, really ministered to me, and really showed me where i need to go on from now on.. mini-CG was great too, just felt the whole CG has now grown closer to each other, as though each one of us broke an invisible barrier which we have always presented to people, both in- and outside church.. (:

sunday was spent clearing up my study table.. you wouldn't even be able to imagine how much junk i've accumulated over the years man.. i threw again bags and bags and bags of stuff, and yet there's still so much stuff! but in the end managed to finish up everything, and now i've a totally clear table! (except for a table light) talk about followship man! LOL

yesterday went for powerhouse early in the morning.. the roads were so empty lol.. surreal..

all the a level people are taking their exams now.. GOOD LUCK YO! (especially to yong hao who called me uncle ben!)

the time of stretching is here man! (i just did literally :D)

nick vujicic nick vujicic nick vujicic!! come on man let's all go for this one! haha, we've been waiting and waiting for it, then suddenly, it's here! today and tomorrow! i'm going, are you? :D:D:D

Philippians 4:6 Be anxious for nothing, but in everything by prayer and supplication, with thanksgiving, let your requests be made known to God; God, we have prayed, we have fasted, we have thanked You for the harvest. now is the time. :D

i must be crazy..

2008-10-31T16:08:00.002+08:00

.. but i've went to mind cafe's website, and started reading around and looking at the..

food.

crazy right??!! not as though i can eat the food right here and now. but hey, doesn't kill to satiate my mental craving (:

let me bombard my blog with pictures of... FOOD!

that i can see all these pictures without going there immediately after work is a miracle. >.<

235 235 235!!

Luke 10:2 Then He said to them, “The harvest truly is great...

nick vujicic!

2008-10-30T00:06:00.004+08:00

long time since i blogged! =X anyway, let me show you an amazing video about an amazing guy.

want to see him live and hear about his life? he'll be speaking in my church next Tuesday and Wednesday, 7.30 to 10pm! it's gonna be a once-in-a-lifetime event cos who knows when he'll come back to Singapore. don't miss it for the world man! :D

of old times..

2008-10-05T22:24:00.003+08:00

anyone who has a blog for quite some time now should do this: go read your old blog entries, from the very very first entry.

i just did so for my friend's and it just reminded me of how i felt when i was reading my very own blog from the very first entry i posted back in 2002.. in sec 2!! lol.. it's more or less a private blog, and i can only let LJ people see what i type, so.. haha.. =X

i was so weird last time!!! lol.. but hey, people change eh?

update more about that tomorrow, haha..

had a great weekend, haha.. children's church yesterday was just amazing.. serving God after a few week's break was great too..

i'm first a son of God, a Christian, then a friend, a classmate, a son, a brother, then a soldier. :D

tired...

2008-10-03T16:05:00.011+08:00

a lot of my posts seem to start when i'm tired, lol..

when i'm tired, it's not a good thing.

i'll tend to just nua there, doing nothing..

then i start to think.
about the people whom i had worked with. who once inspired me. who were in this race with me.
then i'll begin to feel sad.
cos all those are in the past tense.

i'm an emotional creature; my moods swing by me before i know it.. and i tend to be affected very much by my feelings.. but i'm trying to learn to control them.. playing the guitar is cool.. i'm not that good yet, but at least i can play the chorus of a song pretty well in my opinion, and i will use that song to worship at home, just to tell God that to serve Him is my desire..

Hillsong - Lord I Give You My Heart
  G          Em        C-G     D
This is my desire to honour You
Em               G               F-C-D
Lord with all my heart I worship You
G             Em
All I have within me
   C-G        D
I give You praise
    Em          G            F-C-D
And all that I adore is in You

Chorus:
G                    D
Lord I give You my heart
               Am
I give You my soul
   C        D
I live for You alone
G                    D
Every breath that I take
                  Am
Every moment I'm awake
      C         D         G-D
Lord have Your way in me

nice song eh? :P you'd be surprised how much a simple worship can re-calibrate you again.. for those of you who haven't tried it before, do try it man! it sorts of bring you back into focus, however sad or down you might be, however enthusiastic or hyper you might be, it just brings you back to where your spirit wants to go, into God's arms, in tune with the Holy Spirit.. :D

can't wait for the day to end.. going to church to settle some stuff, then going for a study session with julius, going home to practise some guitar, sleep, then it's the weekend! tomorrow's going to be amazing. children church's going to be amazing. :D

accomplished!

2008-09-30T00:05:00.002+08:00

i'm very tired now. really very tired.

but in the midst of all this fatigue, i feel oddly accomplished. even though it's not 100% perfect or complete, i know that at the very least, i've done something i can build on.

i'm tired. but happy.

Isaiah 58:14 ...then you will find your joy in the LORD, and I will cause you to ride on the heights of the land and to feast on the inheritance of your father Jacob."

unconsious mutterings #296

2008-09-28T20:30:00.002+08:00

Hearing :: sound
Aggression :: fierce
Charged :: batteries
Traveler ::
Hydrate :: rivers of living water
Detox :: health-conscious
Qualify :: f1!
Prison :: behind bars
Frontal ::
Pep talk :: sports

footsteps..

2008-09-28T20:13:00.003+08:00

One night I dreamed a dream. I was walking along the beach with my Lord. Across the dark sky flashed scenes from my life. For each scene, I noticed two sets of footprints in the sand, one belonging to me and one to my Lord.

When the last scene of my life shot before me I looked back at the footprints in the sand. There was only one set of footprints. I realized that this was at the lowest and saddest times of my life. This always bothered me and I questioned the Lord about my dilemma.

"Lord, You told me when I decided to follow You, You would walk and talk with me all the way. But I'm aware that during the most troublesome times of my life there is only one set of footprints. I just don't understand why, when I need You most, You leave me."

He whispered, "My precious child, I love you and will never leave you, never, ever, during your trials and testings. When you saw only one set of footprints, It was then that I carried you."

this is a story i really really like. i remember that when i was in BMT at tekong, there was a poster with this story stuck above one of the urinals in the toilet at my floor. at that time i had left God, i had left church, and wasn't even remotely thinking of one day coming back to church. but somehow, i will always end up doing my business halfway at that specific urinal before remembering that this was the urinal.

in the end, somehow God just engineered circumstances that led to me going back to church just before i POC-ed. and it has been a roller-coaster ride since then. i'm glad to be where i am now, because i know this is where i know God wants me to be now.

just as i've missed my mark before, and God having a redemptive plan for me, so He has for you if you'd turned away. don't miss the next chance. (:

just read jian ming's blog about the trip to CHCKL. and WHOA. the live feed crew don't use walkies. WHOOOA. he said that they depended on the Holy Spirit, and just flow along with Him. WHOOOOOOOA. and when you think of the times when we said that "aiyah, the walkie not working again, then in the end cannot deliver..."
looking forward to the day we do sound without walkies... LOL!

Unconscious Mutterings #295

2008-09-23T22:37:00.001+08:00

Heist :: robbery
Hack :: server
Dane :: danish
Stings :: bee
Monkey :: chimp
Junkie :: drugged
Pumped :: iron
Brass :: copper
Fight! :: cheong ah
Vouch :: swear by

live feed!!

2008-09-22T21:08:00.002+08:00

this warrants a post by itself.

first, it's my first ministry, and my first love in ministry.

second, they're going to buy me a MacBook Pro.

:D

haha, thanks people, for that pretty-ful card! really miss holding a camera, standing on stage zooming in and out, slapping the walkie-talkie cos i can't hear the director and my shots show it, the times we came to church early to prepare and practise shots, we went up to the alfresco to gobble down our lunch in 5 minutes, the times when we delivered a great service and the exhilaration, the times when we weren't up to standard and felt a bit down..

i miss live feed, but i know i'm doing what God has asked me to do in a time like this. and i know when the time is right and when God calls, i'll be back.

live feed
purpose . passion . presence

where has all my money gone?

2008-09-22T21:05:00.003+08:00

i've been spending quite a bit of money recently.

first, i bought my guitar on saturday. then today, i bought a new wallet.

i justify that by the fact that i need a new wallet.

yes, if you see my old wallet, you'd agree too.

of course, you could say it's shopping therapy.

and boy, it works. :D

guitar!

2008-09-21T20:29:00.003+08:00

whee i just bought my first guitar yesterday!! after three/four years of thinking of buying one!

i really like the sound from the guitar haha, it was the best out of all i heard while looking around.. thanks wen jun - for helping me out! :D

now all i have to do is to learn it, but hey, i'm not going to buy a $200+ guitar just to put it there lol.. i'm just so excited.. one step closer to my vision! xD next on my sidebar will be guitar links LOL..

2008-09-19T20:59:00.002+08:00

Hati Hamba (Chinese)
我永远不会忘记
主你那丰富恩典
如今我在天父怀中
因为你舍下自己

你不看我的过去
只是完全接纳我
主你的爱何等伟大
我的心完全融化

我亲爱救主
我心何等感谢
你单单在意
我这爱你的心
我愿一生
追求跟随我主
谦卑为你
服事这世界

我亲爱救主
我要一生敬拜
在我生命中
你是唯一的爱
毫无保留
我愿献上所有
何等渴慕
能为你而活
耶稣我主

really one of those weeks where i really want to shout TGIF haha.. it's just been a crazy week, and now all i want to do is to fall asleep on my bed and wake up tomorrow realising that this is all but history..

i miss church. it's somewhere where i can really relax, really not worry.. nvm, 14 more hours and i'll be there haha.. (:

buying guitar tomorrow! it's going to be amazing. (:

standing for You

2008-09-18T11:03:00.002+08:00

All - Hillsong
You're the one who gives me shelter
And You're the light that leads me home
You're the love that gave forever
Lord You're all that I know

With the world upon Your shoulders
Lord You gave Your life away
If the world I know was over
I know I'd have life in the price You paid

And I will stand
And I will worship You forever
For all You are
And I will stand
And all to You I will surrender
I'll worship You forever

standing for Christ all the days of my life

unconcious mutterings #294

2008-09-15T20:51:00.001+08:00

Cut the crap :: shut up
Scent :: lavender
Vanishing :: voldemort
Wetness :: leaking aircon
Cheap :: snip avenue
Badges :: flashy
Puppy :: cuteee
Problem solver :: thinker
Gambling :: no-no
Sophia :: maid [LOL]

link: http://subliminal.lunanina.com/

an interview with God...

2008-09-15T10:58:00.001+08:00

I dreamt that I had an interview with God.
“So you would like to interview me?” God asked.
“If you have the time” I said.
God smiled. “My time is eternity.”

“What questions do you have in mind for me?”

“What surprises you most about humankind?”

God answered...
“That they get bored with childhood,
they rush to grow up, and then
long to be children again.”

“That they lose their health to make money...
and then lose their money to restore their health.”

“That by thinking anxiously about the future,
they forget the present,
such that they live in neither
the present nor the future.”

"That they live as if they will never die,
and die as though they had never lived.”

God’s hand took mine
and we were silent for a while.

And then I asked...
“As a parent, what are some of life’s lessons
you want your children to learn?”

“To learn they cannot make anyone
love them. All they can do
is let themselves be loved.”

“To learn that it is not good
to compare themselves to others.”

“To learn to forgive
by practicing forgiveness.”

“To learn that it only takes a few seconds
to open profound wounds in those they love,
and it can take many years to heal them.”

“To learn that a rich person
is not one who has the most,
but is one who needs the least.”

“To learn that there are people
who love them dearly,
but simply have not yet learned
how to express or show their feelings.”

“To learn that two people can
look at the same thing
and see it differently.”

“To learn that it is not enough that they
forgive one another, but they must also forgive themselves.”
"Thank you for your time," I said humbly.

"Is there anything else
you would like your children to know?"

God smiled and said,
“Just know that I am here... always.”

-author unknown

tired

2008-09-12T15:34:00.003+08:00

finished my Flash template! haha, managed to find out the incriminating code, and volia! everything's done!

i realised that living by knowledge is not enough.. we need to live by revelations.. =/

learning to become a more spiritual, spirit-led person.

unconcious mutterings #293

2008-09-12T15:30:00.002+08:00

House :: home
Think :: too much
Clot :: blood
Believe me :: faith
Fumigation :: eradication
Bore :: army
Luck :: good
Patient :: doctor
Tremors :: run
Pickles :: subway

link: http://subliminal.lunanina.com/

temptations temptations..

2008-09-11T16:50:00.002+08:00

super tempted la.. but no point getting a nano when:
1. i'm going to get a iphone next year
2. my music library is now more than 10GB, and is set to grow still..

but NO. i'm not going to spend 200plus on another ipod nano. i'll save that up haha..

i'm getting my guitar next saturday though! going down to peninsula or bugis with wen jun who'll help me along haha.. super excited! i think it's going to be very very fun! (:

can't wait! :D

tired..

2008-09-10T00:53:00.001+08:00

i'm super tired..

really..

but just a little bit more.

excited!

2008-09-08T20:34:00.004+08:00

you probably can't tell that i'm excited through words. nor if you see me physically now.

but oh, am i so excited for the coming months, for the future.

hoGc is gonna break 1400.
1050 youths.
d8 20.
believe in it.

it's time for growth! everyday since last wednesday to saturday was like a lesson plan in itself!

had children's church rehearsal on wednesday. though it was a good prac, there were other character issues about me that were dealt with la, and even though when Joanne said something she didn't really direct towards me, it still struck my heart la. that as a soundman, i'm part of the altar call. and if it crashes, we are responsible. yup. (:

rushed down to meet the rest of the d zone chalet people with d50! haha, it was quite amusing, choong kai, godric, ranford and fang qi squeezed into the back seat (though it wasn't that much of a squeeze, choong kai and godric quite small size!), and the taxi driver was a bit unhappy haha.. then we really just talked CRAP all the way there! lame jokes abound man LOL! when we reached changi village most of the people already finished eating, so the five of us sat at one table, and ALL of us ate the bak chor mee haha! we also ordered stingray! :D then wen jun, darryl and i shared omelette, before dom, shuyi, evonne, cavin, ranford and i went to the opposite store to buy DURIAN!! haha we ate until like super full for that dinner man!

went back to the SUPER ULU chalet, and after a while we all went to one of the rooms to worship God la.. the anointing and presence of God was oh-so-powerful la. dom shared with us a sharing after that, and goodness me, it was just WHOA. fear of the Lord. that would explain what ~~hopefully will~~ come out in my blog sidebar ~~soon~~ at 2140! (still looking for more verses to add in!) LOL. shared with shuyi what was on my heart after the sharing, and was really really impacted for a changed me =P

after that we just started to hang out, and i started to pick up whatever i could about the guitar from everyone there. going to buy my own guitar soon, and my dream is to play for d8 (20!) by december! i might not be very good then, but it's the heart that counts! haha :D

i'm really excited for growth.

after effect of chalet...

2008-09-04T23:16:00.002+08:00

feeling super tired now.. as though i haven't slept for ages lol.. really don't feel like going work tomorrow.....

character. i still need loads of molding in this. fear of the Lord come upon me, teach me in Your ways. without the fear of the Lord, i'd rather not rise up and lead. without the fear of the Lord... it'll just be quite sad ain't it?

looking forward to the harness of the Lord. it's the only way i can grow to who God wants me to be. and flourish into my destiny. :D off to do QT and sleep.

birthday came and gone...

2008-09-02T11:48:00.002+08:00

and i felt so refreshed in God.. :D it was really a superb experience last week, being able to pop by church for prayer meetings, to go for CG, to just relax in God's presence, to hear God speak to me and just to enjoy fellowship with God and my fellow church-mates!

saturday's children church was super anointed. who ever said that young children cannot experience God, cannot know God because they are young? on saturday i saw many kids in God's presence, touched by His love, being challenged by Him.. who said older people are too old to receive from sermons for children church services? on saturday, i just felt so challenged by God, heard God speak to me so clearly, felt so ready to rise up to the next level..

d8's nearly at boiling point already.. i feel that the season for growth will come soon.. like shuyi said, now is the pre-season for growth, just going out, loving people.. when the actual growth season comes, d8's going to explode.. get ready for it. :D

cry out to God

2008-08-17T23:20:00.000+08:00

i need to seek God again.

seek God for forgiveness, for refuge.

yesterday sister mae-ann shared about having to cry out to God when problems come, and not just let them grow bigger and bigger.

that's what i need to do.

in camp early in the morning...

2008-08-15T07:13:00.003+08:00

woke up quite early today (i thought it was very early, until wenqi told me that shes waking up at 4 plus to go school.. >.<)

had a great CG yesterday.. really liked Shuyi's message, even though it seemed a bit practical, and more of a sharing, but really, if you managed to catch that message in your spirit,

woohoo.

d8 20.
it's not that hard actually.
just one friend every week.
that's easy!

Matthew 9:37-38 37 Then He said to His disciples, “The harvest truly is plentiful, but the laborers are few. 38 Therefore pray the Lord of the harvest to send out laborers into His harvest.”

few things to note from this short passage:
1. the harvest is plentiful. it truly is plentiful! d8's 12, 13.. 20 is just 8 more. 8 more souls for God, serving God, loving God. 8 more is simple for God.
2. laborers are few. new leaders to rise up man..
3. pray the Lord of the harvest to send out laborers. here i am Lord. here i am.

d8 is just like a renamed d2. if d2 could grow from a small group to 20, d8 can.

and more importantly, it will.

the harvest is coming! be ready for it!
Luke 12:37-39 37 It will be good for those servants whose master finds them watching when he comes. I tell you the truth, he will dress himself to serve, will have them recline at the table and will come and wait on them. 38 It will be good for those servants whose master finds them ready, even if he comes in the second or third watch of the night. 39 But understand this: If the owner of the house had known at what hour the thief was coming, he would not have let his house be broken into.

be ready for the harvest. don't lose sight of the goal!

sian of army

2008-08-13T23:33:00.002+08:00

hehe got my hard disk today.. then just now just realised that hey! i did copy my praise and worship over to this computer! haha, super happy! then i quickly copied them to my external hdd xD

build to last build to last build to last! lucky army's only two years, i'll go crazy under my chief clerk if i have to work for her for too long.. never appreciates people, only looks at their bad parts while missing out the good.. argh..

maybe she needs to listen to more gold 90.5fm.. (:

pastor how! get well soon! :) really praying for a speedy recovery for you!

2008-08-13T08:43:00.003+08:00

revelation: tests are meant to see how good you are.

whoa. sometimes as people, we tend to take things lightly: "aiyah, never mind la, like that can already", "can work can already, don't worry so much".. but God knows our attitude.. He sees more than what our hands do, He sees what our attitude and heart is when we are doing what our hands do..

give God your best, and i'm sure God will give you His best. (: wanna bet?

happening national day :D

2008-08-08T22:30:00.001+08:00

haha, today quite happening ah.. had a half day off from work today, then went to church to have lunch with garrett.. he really shared with us about what he envisioned our church's sound ministry would be, and i must it was a really good time of sharing la, and i really learnt a lot, haha.. not only that, it also gave me a new perspective about the sound ministry and our function la, and that is to support Pastors, to support the worship team, so as to really help them to preach a message that would capture the people's hearts, and to bring down the presence of God so people will be able to experience Him and His goodness la.. yup, haha.. :)

after that i went for prayer meeting! haha, it's been quite long since i've went for the weekday prayer meetings, and i could really feel the presence of God in my life today.. you know, that reassuring voice in your heart that says that all will be fine, as long as i fear God and keep His commandments? yup, that was God speaking to me, reassuring me that everything will be fine.. =D

after that we went for an impromptu movie outing! haha, it was quite funny, 23 of us were there, and we made up like a quarter of the cinema la, lol.. we were watching money no enough 2, which was supposed to be a funny movie, but it turned out that around half of us cried la, and no, not of laughter.. the front part was really funny, how it was like mocking the government and everything, but at the end it was really just super sad la, the way the three brothers just threw their mom around and everything, to the point that their mom was actually agreeing to their every request, but in her heart she was really hurt, and every night she was just crying and crying la.. then i just cried and cried at the way she decided to give up her life so the blood meant for her can be used to save her granddaughter who didn't even really love her.. sob, lol..

on my way home now to rest for a super exciting weekend.. =D 41st day's playing tomorrow, haha.. xDxDxD

reformatting computer again.

2008-08-04T20:05:00.005+08:00

i officially hate microsoft to the core X 10^100. stupid vista looks nice, but lags my computer so much that i can't stand it anymore, especially since i'm going to use photoshop and other what-nots on it, so i decided to go back to windows xp.

which meant that i have to copy all my stuff all over the place again to make sure that i don't lose any data.

but now it seems like i've lost all my christian music collection.

AGAIN.

stuuuuuuuuuuuupid windows. stuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuupid microsoft.

(i'm using apple safari as my browser now and it highlights microsoft as wrong spelling xDxDxD)

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wenqi got her macbook today. i'm jealous. for the umpteenth time since the start of the year. )':

happeh!

2008-08-04T00:46:00.001+08:00

haha, this past weekend has been fruitful (:

email is a God-send. there're so many things which i can't seem to communicate through the spoken word, but i've always been one to write. plus there're some things which are quite hard to say in front of other people, but you die die must tell someone.. that's when email comes to play.. the best part is that you can choose when to read which emails.. so you can priortise.. :D

just planned my life for this week, then decided to go one step further and prepare to plan out what are some of the dates i have to take note of for the rest of the year.. did a template in excel for that, just need to enter in the descriptions tomorrow morning before leaving..

august looks amazing already. (:

whoopee!

2008-07-29T16:17:00.002+08:00

haha i just printed out 28 pages of stuff to read. and learn how to play the guitar! (:

not that i have a guitar now, but hey, i believe i will have one by the end of this year.

God will provide ;)

P.S. lol, kinoon asked me to look at some of the Taylor 800 series guitars. nearly freaked out when i saw the price. >.<

character

2008-07-28T21:54:00.004+08:00

do i want to be a normal Christian?

or do i want to be a radical one?

for God to use mightily, to lead people to Christ?
to support my Pastors and leaders?
to bring people to the point where they know that God is real, and can't deny it anymore?

i know i want to be the second type of Christian.

i know my destiny in God is great, if and only if i change.

my character must be moulded by God more.
i need to change my character, and this change can only be brought about by God.

Psalm 41
To the Chief Musician. A Psalm of David.
1 Blessed is he who considers the poor;
The LORD will deliver him in time of trouble.
2 The LORD will preserve him and keep him alive,
And he will be blessed on the earth;
You will not deliver him to the will of his enemies.
3 The LORD will strengthen him on his bed of illness;
You will sustain him on his sickbed.

4 I said, “LORD, be merciful to me;
Heal my soul, for I have sinned against You.”
5 My enemies speak evil of me:
“When will he die, and his name perish?”
6 And if he comes to see me, he speaks lies;
His heart gathers iniquity to itself;
When he goes out, he tells it.

7 All who hate me whisper together against me;
Against me they devise my hurt.
8 “An evil disease,” they say, “clings to him.
And now that he lies down, he will rise up no more.”
9 Even my own familiar friend in whom I trusted,
Who ate my bread,
Has lifted up his heel against me.

10 But You, O LORD, be merciful to me, and raise me up,
That I may repay them.
11 By this I know that You are well pleased with me,
Because my enemy does not triumph over me.
12 As for me, You uphold me in my integrity,
And set me before Your face forever.

13 Blessed be the LORD God of Israel
From everlasting to everlasting!
Amen and Amen.

excited!

2008-07-28T15:52:00.002+08:00

whoa, last week was really a power-packed weekend! went to church bright and early after my tuition on saturday, then met kelvin and colin from d1! kelvin came early because he thought the getting started Bible studies was on, and was telling colin that he couldn't make it cos he is meeting kevin and some of his friends he's bringing to church, and colin agreed! LOL in the end when kelvin found out that there was no classes that weekend, he was like "chey! i thought why suddenly you (colin) so lenient!" haha super funny!

colin was busy after that, so i went down with kelvin to meet the rest of the people! in the end i met like super a lot of new people, and others i've not talked to for a long time, like kevin, viknesh, clara, abigail, alan, and more lol! cannot remember all their names now.. met this new friend called beth too! she's also learning japanese! haha..

anyways, service was amazing! Pastor Ed King was really really very good, and could really feel the presence of God.. it was basically about living under the cover which God has prepared for us, our local church.. and for me, that means heart of God church! xD after service, went to hang out with my fellow d8ians, haha it's been such a long time since we really sat down, talked nonsense and joked!

my latest joke: you want to watch the dark knight? don't waste so much money, just go to the window at night! :D

hahas anyway, early sunday morning i went to buy breakfast (though my mom paid lol) for my whole family, including my aunt and my grandparents! we visited them early in the morning and just really talked to each other for a while.. after that my dad had to leave for work (YES ON SUNDAY! o_0;;), and my mom was meeting her sister (my aunt too! LOL) to do some banking stuff, so we left for the OCBC bank at bedok.. After everything was done we went to have a McDonald's lunch before i cheong-ed down to church for service prayer meeting haha.. reached just in time (:

service with Pastor Troy Marshall was very good too! authority, order, function, blessing! it has to go in this order!

wan chin came for service too!! must blog about her la, haha! shuyi, cavin, daniel, her and i were at kopitiam after service, then we were like just talking while she was studying.. then shuyi decided to test wan chin on chem! haha, even though she couldn't answer some of the questions, she was like "oh no, i don't know this, i must go study!" haha, zai right! i remember last time i'd go, "aiyah dunno la, nvm i shall study something else" =X love to learn!!

haha, i was supposed to finish this post in camp!! but today in camp was quite exciting too LOL.. i was chatting with wenqi on ebuddy when suddenly THE FIRE ALARM WENT OFF!! it was super funny, cos i hurriedly said fire alarm LOL to wenqi, then went off.. turned out that it wasn't really a drill, and there was really some trouble, so the fire engines came and everything.. turned out that there wasn't really a big fire, so we could go back after a while.. in the end the fire alarm went off again, so down we went again, only to realise it was ANOTHER FALSE ALARM. sian right!!?? then went to gym and had very bad muscle cramps.. too little exercise for too long =X

FOP this week! super excited, i'm going to be on usher!! lol!! ok i better end off now.. otherwise goodness knows how much longer it'll take LOL

blog shopping!

2008-07-25T08:17:00.003+08:00

lol, went blog-hopping again, and this time i found several blog shop sites.. and decided to bookmark them in my blog lol..

but boy, am i tired. >.< *snore* can't wait for the weekend. it's going to be amazing. (:

at work..

2008-07-23T17:07:00.002+08:00

tired ah.. lol, spent much of the afternoon clearing out and tidying my super messy storeroom in camp, lol.. realised that i got too much stuff! i've like 200+ rolls of masking tape, dunno how many files and all that! it's really crazy LOL.. was super tired before doing all that, but when i was actually doing the clearing, i was laughing so much i was quite awake.. now's a different story though..

and i've still got tuition later! >>;

this is so not supposed to be the case man! i slept 7 hours yesterday! people like dominic and charleston sleep less than 5!

AE this year is super exciting lol.. i just wish i was taking my o or a levels again lOl..

can't really think of what to blog, cos there're just so many different thoughts running through my head.. but believe me, they're good thoughts.. thoughts that build my Faith, that change my Character..

to learn from wenqi: 馬太福音 19:14

耶稣说：让小孩子到我这里来，不要禁止他们；因为在天国的，正是这样的人。

God treasures child-like Faith. like the Faith you had in God when you were first touched by God, impacted by Him..

being a child for Christ

yawn...

2008-07-22T23:16:00.001+08:00

haha went to find LOADS of chinese oldies, cos someone in my office started bringing in his iPod full of oldies! chinese and english! super excited now, LOLS!

can't wait for the weekend.. somehow just feel that something's gonna happen, something's gonna breakthrough.. :D

Lord, the harvest is ready! but send the harvesters to collect it!! :D:D:D

excited!

2008-07-20T08:17:00.001+08:00

haha, this week has really been amazing, and i'm sure excited about today!

first: happy birthday johnson! haha..

second: first sound duty! *excited yet nervous*

third: AE! and the prizes are so cool...

fourth: GXT!! looking super forward to watching that video again LOL!

Raining!!

2008-07-15T17:29:00.002+08:00

i'm all ready to go home after a ~~short~~ long afternoon at work, but HEY it's RAINING!!!

argh!! lol.. aiyah, but today had quite a short day at work.. in the morning i had a dental appointment which was at 10.30, so i left home like at around 9 plus to take a bus travelling through tampines, simei, bedok, katong, bugis, chinatown all the way to SGH! and i was still on time! haha.. plus i woke up at 7.30, when usually i'm supposed to be in camp at 8! lol! super shiok..

after that i took another slow bus back to camp, reached about 12 plus haha.. then went for lunch, did some work, then went blog-hopping again lol..

ecclesiastes is really interesting.. lol..

can't wait for the rest of this exciting week man! CG tomorrow, sound lesson on thursday night, then services on friday, saturday and sound foldback on sunday! WOO HOO! haha!

i'm running after You :D

resolution!

2008-07-14T13:14:00.004+08:00

went blog-hopping for much of the morning, haha.. just randomly linked from one blog to another and just enjoyed myself reading all the blogs and entries.. so many people from so many different walks of lives, coming together for God, to build His kingdom, to live for His cause..

woohoo man!! lol..

i don't know if you can feel the excitement, but i'm really really excited! yes, there're definitely going to be mundane periods ~~like now when i'm in army especially!~~, but i know i'm part of the relay to do something great for God!

really blessed by ivan's sharing on saturday haha.. and for the first time, i finally can spell ecclesiastes without errors, and know how to pronounce it too, lol.. yeah, i know i WOLS =X

but really, i'm really inspired by a lot of the sharing that i've had for the past few months.. i remember during B.M.T. ~~not BMT~~ how God was telling me to let the worship of my heart catch up with the works of my hands (though i wasn't really doing that much compared to my leaders and most of my peers).. i remember how during the zone hangout in june God reassured me that He will renew my strength if i wait on Him Isaiah 40:31, and that in Him, i can find rest Matthew 11:29.. i remember in one of the Zone F services, where dominic preached about how Christian life is not only about the fireworks, but also about the mundane in our lives, and how it is through this mundane periods of our life when our character is shaped..

Christianity is not about how only about how we end, but it's about how we live through each day.. it's not about how much you have done for God, but how much you have obeyed God.. obedience, not sacrifice..

resolution! to live my life for Christ. to be a generation that pure and holy, that is competent and successful, of leaders, of great and godly families, of missionaries, of volunteers.. more than this, i want to build a WORLD CLASS CHURCH in a first world nation with a FIRST CLASS SPIRITUAL ATMOSPHERE, together with my Pastors and leaders. and on top of this, i just want to fear God, and obey His commandments. (:(:(:

sabbath!

2008-07-09T18:49:00.001+08:00

took MC today HEH! wasn't feeling all that well, and i was really aching, plus i was really really tired, so just called in sick lol.. watched L - change the world ~~finally~~, and realised that there're some parts which don't really flow logically, but *shrugs* it's just a movie! though i can't wait to finish reading the manga.. and oh, the small boy in the movie is cute! lol, he's like silent throughout the whole movie, but when he solved that super confusing mathematical problem ~~which i dunno is about what~~ he just kept going "13:11! 13:11! 13:11!" lol!

starting to do Bible studies on my own haha.. for one it's to help me to know the Word of God more, in the context of different themes, and also i'm using it as a way i can remind myself constantly about God's standards.. :)

messaged my cousin Johnson today! haha turns out that he's cheryl chan's OGL in MJ, and she was bringing him around church yesterday! haha.. quite de interesting! (:

198 days to ORD! :D

Hillsong United - I Simply Live For

2008-07-07T23:01:00.001+08:00

Say the word and I will sing for You
Over oceans deep, I will follow
If each star was a song
And every breath of wind, praise
It would still fail by far to say
All my heart contains
I simply live, I simply live for You

As the glory of Your presence
Now fills this place
In worship, we will meet You face to face
There is nothing in this world
To which You can be compared
Glory on glory, praise upon praise
You bind the broken hearted
And save all my tears
By Your word, You set the captives free
There is nothing in this world
That You cannot do
I simply live, I simply live for You

200 days to ORD! :D

randomly went to Slash's house today lol.. just spent time talking and watching babies laugh and other random and quirky videos.. justin's growing quite tanned.. and he's taller than Slash now LOL..

QT! then going to watch superband with FIR! :D lol

Boiling Water

2008-07-06T22:45:00.002+08:00

did you learn in science about boiling water before? you know, about how water in a kettle can be as high as 95, 99 degrees C, but it looks just the same as it looks at normal room temperature? but when it reaches 100 degrees C! whoa!

Sometimes all we have to do in life is to just give just a little bit more, and we'll boil over! are YOU prepared to give a bit more today, tomorrow, and all the way until the water boils over?

finally!

2008-07-04T08:36:00.003+08:00

whew! finally found the reason why i couldn't post a new blogskin, hah.. but made it! not exactly the blogskin i have in mind now, but i'll have to wait till i can find that picture.. if anyone will know what i am talking about, it's the one with the beach scene, then there're some footsteps on the sand.. initially there were two sets of footprints, but further down the road there were only one set left.. there's a story behind this picture, which i'll post when i get my next layout! (:

but everything's up and running, and so yays!

attitude! it's a choice man :D when something negative happens to you, do you choose to deny and have a black face? or to say it's your fault and rectify the error with a humbled face? i need to learn to lean more towards the second side mans >.<

it's friday!!! the weekend's gonna be awesome! D8's gonna explode! :D:D:D

New blog!

2008-06-30T23:10:00.000+08:00

haha, I finally decided to start a new blogspot blog, haha.. yes! the design bug has bitten me again, and i'm beginning to find my LJ a bit too rigid in terms of layout lol.. =X but i really don't have the time to design a blog now!! so it shall look boring and lifeless until i have the time lol!

sons and servants! haha, these few weeks i just kept feeling God asking me whether i saw myself as a son in His house, or a mere servant! both are gladly welcomed into the kingdom of God, but there is a subtle difference between them which differentiates them! a servant merely serves God, serves people.. he has no inheritance, nor any say in the household.. on the other hand, a son enjoys fellowship with God, loves people, and is treasured in the kingdom of God!

are you a servant or a son today? :P