finally got down to fully read this book by John Bevere that i'd bought quite some time ago, but have never finished.. not that i've finished it now, but currently have a resolve to finish reading it, and i will.

i like what it says in one of the first few chapters: it's always black-and-white for other people, but there's always a gray area for ourselves. how true.. oftentimes i think that people shouldn't do this, shouldn't try that, but at times i end up doing the exact thing.. it was sort of a mini-revelation to me, that i've disrespected God by going against His commandments, yet thinking that God has somehow allowed me some leeway in doing the things that i do..

change my thinking, change my attitude, change my life..

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had an amazing discipleship class with Pastors last saturday.. how do you keep your idealism in this world, even as you grow up?

according to dictionary.com, idealism is "the cherishing or pursuit of high or noble principles, purposes, goals, etc".. well, that was the closest definition to what we had discussed..

idealism is hard to maintain in this practical world.. that's just the cold hard truth.. but at the same time, there is an innate desire to remain idealistic, to continue being idealistic.. bills, housing, cars, children.. they can just blow you away..

but remaining idealistic is a choice.. and what we do today determines our choice, and determines whether we can stay idealistic in the future.. we need to have a strong anchor, and we need to be deeply rooted.. have such a strong anchor that we cannot simply just say "there's someone else to take over me".. so deeply rooted that no matter what happens, we stay convicted to the cause that we live for, die for..

are you willing to die a fool for Christ? i am, and i want to remain so.. (: