好久没有写部落格了⋯今天决定用话语写，请别介意⋯（介意的话就别读！）
最近感觉有一点犹豫⋯也不知道为什么，就觉得有一点的惆怅。或许是因为知道自己没有爬到更高峰，而也知道原因是因为自己最近失去了一丝的上进心。没那么常读圣经，没那么常祷告，没那么常等待，聆听神到底要跟我说什么⋯也应该是因为这样所以觉得自己在用自己的力量在跑，而之所以感觉如此的犹豫。
世界上有很多东西可以让我笑：台湾综艺节目，与朋友聚会，做我爱做的事⋯但并不是很多事能让我快乐。
尼 希 米 記 8:10 - 又 对 他 们 说 ： 你 们 去 吃 肥 美 的 ， 喝 甘 甜 的 ， 有 不 能 预 备 的 就 分 给 他 ， 因 为 今 日 是 我 们 主 的 圣 日 。 你 们 不 要 忧 愁 ， 因 靠 耶 和 华 而 得 的 喜 乐 是 你 们 的 力 量 。
因 靠 耶 和 华 而 得 的 喜 乐 是 你 们 的 力 量
喜乐大概也就是快乐吧。真正的喜乐来自与耶和华。也就因为如此，我的快乐来源应该来自神。
因 靠 耶 和 华 而 得 的 喜 乐
是 你 们 的 力 量 力量。因神来的快乐将会转换成力量。而这股力量，不将只足够我去做好的事，不将只足够我去做对的事，而能帮我，在对的时间，对的环境，做对的事。
也就适因为如此，我无时无刻需要圣灵在我左右，帮助我，协助我。也就是因为如此，牧师才会说：微笑是需要采取信念才能做得到的。没有信念，就等于没有把握⋯如果没有把握，又怎么笑得出来？
我需要找回信念⋯把握⋯微笑。不只是在总人面前撑出来的微笑，而是发自内心，从耶和华取来的力量，之所以顺其自然的微笑。
SOW.. hanging out for d evens..@12:12 AM
had a great day today! haha..
spent the morning confirming which songs i want to play for SOW auditions.. :P scared of choosing too hard a song, then not being able to pass auditions, but also don't want to choose too easy a song.. but just felt God telling me
now that the song i choose is not important, the heart that i play the song with is more important.. haha.. God is amazing man..
went out after lunch to fetch fifi!!! whoa, it's been so long since i've seen her man!! haha.. it was meant to be a d evens thing, but in the end only a few of us turned up, and it was quite funny lol.. just really spent time with the leaders of d evens, and hanging out!
after fifi left, we went to have lunch, then made our way down to cathay to meet more people and catch a movie - Taken.. i realised 10-15 minutes into the show that.. hey.. this looks familiar.. and in the end, REVELATION: i saw this in camp before.. >.< and it was like quite some time ago, since i orded in january, so it must be like at least 4-5 months ago.. - -; singapore cinemas are slow man.. no wonder
piracy.. =X
after that went to have selegie chicken rice and the tauhuay.. whoa, now having craving for it man.. lol.. it's like drugs, once you have it, you want to continue having it.. but once you separate yourself from it for some time, the craving's gone lol..
stopped by at church before coming home to put my guitar there.. then had a great h&c with shuyi! the army people need to come out early man.. =/ and shirlene!! lol..
tomorrow's going to be awesome: NTU med checkup in the morning, buying a guitar pick at city hall, then CG and YA meeting! busy busy day yo! :D
tired. >.<
just did something in faith, it has stumbled me before, and if i'm not careful, it will stumble me again.. but i cannot doubt the voice of God, and thus acted in faith. believe that God will come through :)
i think sometimes people tend to think too much.. i know i do, especially when it's at night, and there's nothing to distract your mind from thinking.. "what if".. "maybe".. "if i had done that".. the list goes on and on, and many times we just allow our minds to think, and let it go unharnessed.. not exactly a bad thing, but not necessarily good also..
i want to learn to guard my mind more.. it's too easy to be caught offguard, too easy to just "go".. :@ i should be the master of my mind.. :)
long time since i blogged lol.. was reading 2 chronicles 26 after meeting shuyi today, and saw something which i probably had read before, but didn't notice properly..
(v5)
[Uzziah] sought God in the days of Zechariah, who had understanding in the visions of God; and as long as he sought the LORD, God made him prosper. Uzziah was a man of God in his youth.. He was king of Jerusalem (v3), he did what was right in the Lord's eyes (v4) and God responded to his faithful heart. Uzziah was someone who would be like a senior leader in church, someone who would be preaching from time to time in a zone meeting, someone other people might look up too, and God prospered his ministry. From verses 6 to 15, the Bible gave examples of how God prospered him.. and man, when the Bible says God prospered someone, it
means God prospered him in a great manner!
(v16)
But when he was strong his heart was lifted up, to his destruction, for he transgressed against the LORD...But when Uzziah was strong! Many people in this world would become wealthy, prosperous, might be promoted to a high position in their companies etc.. However, what is our reaction when we become wealthy? do we forget the God element? remember, in verse 5, it says that
God prospered him. Uzziah's success wasn't purely based on his merit, wasn't purely based on his achievements - God was the key factor! but when Uzziah became strong, he became proud, and when he became proud, he transgressed against God.
(v16-19)
16 But when he was strong his heart was lifted up, to his destruction, for he transgressed against the LORD his God by entering the temple of the LORD to burn incense on the altar of incense. 17 So Azariah the priest went in after him, and with him were eighty priests of the LORD—valiant men. 18 And they withstood King Uzziah, and said to him, “It is not for you, Uzziah, to burn incense to the LORD, but for the priests, the sons of Aaron, who are consecrated to burn incense. Get out of the sanctuary, for you have trespassed! You shall have no honor from the LORD God.”
19 Then Uzziah became furious; and he had a censer in his hand to burn incense. And while he was angry with the priests, leprosy broke out on his forehead, before the priests in the house of the LORD, beside the incense altar. when Uzziah became strong, he became proud, and he began to get big-headed. God made it clear that only the priests, sons of Aaron were supposed to burn incense at the altar of incense.. but Uzziah thought himself above such rules and regulations.. who was he, to be bound down by such rules and regulations? he was Uzziah, the one who conquered the Philistines, subdued the Ammonites. he was king, and he was powerful.. why should he submit to authority, why should he care about the priests now? and who are the priests, to come and tell Uzziah that he cannot burn incense for the Lord? didn't they know he was king? didn't they know that he wanted to worship God,
in his own ways?
but God's ways are always higher than ours.. as Uzziah went against God, God struck him down with leprosy.. and by doing so, God made Uzziah an outcast in his times..
sometimes it is easy to forget the God element.. sometimes submitting to authority is no fun.. but God has a plan for each and every single one of us..
for the businessman, God has put him there, that he might be the salt and light in the world, able to make a difference.. promotions come, pay cheques balloon, all in God's will, all for a reason.. are we so blinded that we would just take it as
we have earned our promotion,
we have worked hard for a pay rise, and neglect God, miss tithings, scrimp on offerings? and are we going to get so proud, that people under you have to remain silent, do what they're told, and leave no room for discussions?
for the leader, God has risen him up to minister to people, to input into others' lives.. TL, CGL, ZM, ZL.. are we so blinded by titles that we forget the reason why we were put in pastoral leadership, why we were promoted as leaders in the house of God? do we become so proud, that now, we want to do things our way, and others cannot input into the situation?
it is easy to become proud, easy to forget God, but it is a fact that whatever happens, it happens because God wanted it to happen, and when it happens, God can use it to further glorify Himself.. in the world, many people think only about themselves.. it's always about me, myself and i.. but God is a God of prosperity, a God of abundance.. and God chooses who to prosper, who to bless in abundance.. no matter how high we climb, no matter what we do, no matter where we are, remember verse 5..
[Uzziah] sought God in the days of Zechariah, who had understanding in the visions of God; and as long as he sought the LORD, God made him prosper.
we need to continually seek God.. God puts things into perspective again.. God brings down our proud hearts, and aligns us to Him again.. He doesn't need us, but He loves us, and in loving us, made a decision to do some things, prosper us, provide for us.. the least we can do is to come to God, thank Him, and love Him back.. :)
