received my freshmen's package a few days ago, and spent most of yesterday (when i was home) preparing for university.. there's an excitement that "yes, i'm finally going back to school", a longing that says "finally, one step closer to realizing my dream", yet there's also a trepidation that goes "there's so much i'm not sure about", a fear that goes "oh shucks, what's going to happen next"..

2 Timothy 1:7 For God has not given us a spirit of fear, but of power and of love and of a sound mind

there're so many choices, so many combinations, so many options, so many places where i can choose wrongly, and cause regret.. yet there're so many opportunities, so much experiences, so many chances for me to learn, to grow..

even as deadlines for applications loom and timelines for results are aplenty, there's a part of me knowing that it'll be ok.. naturally, i've done most of what i can, i've made decisions to the best of my human mind, i've tried to do what i can.. but God will take over from here on.. everything is still more or less a mystery to me, still hazy, still unclear.. but God is above all this.. His eyes see beyond the fog before me, His knowledge is far beyond mine.. ultimately, i'm doing this for none other than Him, and i'm pursuing a dream He gave me..

Matthew 6:33 But seek first the kingdom of God and His righteousness, and all these things shall be added to you.

first, the kingdom of God. beyond that, God will still be in the picture to make sure all things are alright.

in God i trust..